‘ do you really think… we can fix all of this ?’ guilt and trepidation dripping from each syllable, and she can’t help the shattering of her once-hardened facade; tifa can’t lie to herself, they caused all of this, and despite trying to do something about it and fix it, she wonders if it can even be done. so, she looks to him – for guidance, answers that she hopes he has, otherwise, it’ll just be all for nothing.
‘ hey, aer… you holdin’ up okay ?’ a soft tone in her voice, albeit tired as they walk side-by-side. she’s unaware of how much time has passed since they left midgar, and her mind is still trying to process it all. ‘ i know it’s been… a lot happening lately. ’
it’s hard to keep track of all the things he owes her for: giving him a roof over his head and a group of rag tag outsiders to call family top the list, but there’s one thing he can never truly thank her enough for. she reminded him what hope felt like. when he was ragged and hewn, he found his way back to her, a soldier returning home though not even he knew it yet. she’d changed, yes, but into the kind of woman he could fall in love with all over again. but second changes don’t come easy, and this time he had the courage to say so.
❛ oh? what am i gonna do with you and all this time together? ❜ he teases, a playful lift to his tone. after all their time apart, it sounds like heaven –fitting that it’s the name of her own bar. as she steals a kiss, he smiles against her lips, slight but undeniable. ❛ if we’re gonna be spendin’ all this time together, i could get used to that. ❜ he teases.
a soft giggle past lips and slipped so delicately into the lingering seconds of the kiss, she pulls back from him, just about an inch or so; it’s enough to be able to read those eyes of his, tinged with the green hues of mako, but surrounded by those baby blues she remembers from their youth.
‘ hm… y’know there may be some ideas we can explore, ’ she replies, teasing as much as him and mimicking a similar tone. who would have thought she, tifa lockhart, would be able to have moments like these with him? if someone had told her younger self, there would only be denial.
tifa isn’t sure what cloud sees in her, to have confessed to her the night prior, but if anything is for sure, she wouldn’t have it any other way. ‘ well, whatd’ya know? i think i could get used t’it too. ’ a slip of the accent from their hometown, and she only allows it around him. their connection, their not-so-little secret. it’s what bound them together in the first place.
‘ hey, forgot t’ask. want some coffee? ’ there’s an embarrassed and shy smile upon her lips, she just can’t help getting so distracted by him.
He could see it, he wasn’t blind. She was hurting too. They both had their nightmares, the things that would haunt them for the rest of their lives. Which only made him feel that much more guilty. She dealt with it as much as he did and yet she was so much stronger. Her suffered was just as deep and yet she still wore a smile when he couldn’t even imagine doing the same.
His lips part to speak, to tell her it’s okay to hurt, that it’s okay to feel something; like so many times she had told him the same. He hadn’t done well to take her advice so who was he to give it in return?
And so his sky gaze drifts down to the bar’s surfaces, so many things he wanted to say. He wanted to make everything okay, she deserved it; if anyone deserved happiness it was Tifa. And yet, Cloud always made her worry for him. Never knowing where he was, or if he was okay, or even what he was getting himself mixed up in.
His gaze lifts when she’s turning back around holding a familiar bottle of whiskey. A soft smile spreads across the blond’s lips, a small nod of his head following “ sure. ” he wasn’t much for drinking, but he was home for the time being. It wouldn’t hurt.
when she sees that small nod, accompanied by a rare smile, she gives a nod of her own, subtle, and rounds the counter to take a seat beside him. she sets down to glasses on the counter, settles on the bar stool, and carefully pulls out the cork before pouring the deep amber liquid into each glass, about a shots worth.
a small sigh past lips once again, she takes her glass into her hand, swirling it around a bit, before pausing and looking at him.
as much as she tries to hide her pain, to hide it from the kids and their friends and especially from him, she knows all too well that cloud can see past the facade, that he can read her like a book, just like she can read him.
‘
you can admit that you’re hurting … it’s okay to not be okay . ’ another pause with a quiet chuckle, tifa shakes her head and looks down at the drink in her hands. ‘ i’m giving advice that i can’t even follow … how sad is that? ’
you are so good at caring for others and keeping all your wounds covered. you are so good at drowning quietly, you’ve made it into an art. you are so good and you’re falling apart.
PLEASE READ THE FOLLOWING
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New followers: Hey guys! Cali here with a few things; please read the following and enjoy your stay!
Please note that this account is ’selective’ and is currently independent.
✖ FOLLOWING/UNFOLLOWING;
To everyone following me or thinking about following me, you are welcomed here with open arms! Don’t think that you will ever be excluded here. If I seem like I’m not interested, just send me an ask! Sometimes I’m incredibly shy or my social anxiety comes through the computer; all I ask is that you’re patient with me.
Also, my blog is here as an outlet for me to write and escape adult duties, especially since the outside world is pretty terrifying nowadays. I am here for me; and I know that may sound mean, but I have been ridiculed before on various past blogs for not interacting with someone because I didn’t have the time. Like I said before, if you want to interact with me, shoot me a message in my ask! Just, please, don’t make me feel bad for not interacting with you if I can’t make the time in my schedule. That’s not okay and I will not tollerate it for my own mental sanity.
✖ NSFW CONTENT;
NSFW posts will appear on this blog from time to time, depending on happens with the NSFW ban happening as of 12/4, though not all the time and in certain degrees. If you wish to block any of the NSFW content posted, I will have various tags for various things. These tags will be updated in the Rules portion of my blog but also will be announced through posts as well.
Sex: ( sexual tw. )
Blood: ( blood tw. )
Violence: ( violence tw.)
I’m 22 years of age and will not rp anything NSFW or anything that could be classed as NC-17 with anyone under 18. I understand different countries and states have different laws, but I am not willing to risk myself, as well as others, getting in trouble.
✖ Shipping;
This is a multi-verse blog. That means, there is the possibility of a relationship happening ( uwu ). There is always the chance of our characters starting a relationship with first interactions and building it in later threads, or meeting first hand and getting to know each other first. Don’t be afraid to come to me about it! I love a good shippy thread~
✖ OC’s;
I think this may come as a shocker with how weird the rp community gets but, yes I’m OC friendly! However, it does help me in the long run if you have a bio or some sort of about page for me to read before interracting. I love OC’s but I love well-rounded and well-plotted OC’s more--though it is okay if you're just starting out, I understand it all too well. That being said, if you want your OC to have a verse with me, or your OC is the daughter of Tifa as an example, please come into my ask so we can discuss this.
✖ AU’s/Crossovers;
COMPLETELY WELCOME HERE. I love AU’s and X-Overs– hhhhhh !! They’re perfect and amazing and offer a lot of growth to a thread, and even to our characters. So don’t be afraid to ask for an AU version! I'll also have some verses set up soon of different FF games, as well as games outside of the Final Fantasy universe.
✖ Starters;
I tend not to write starters for new followers as I find the majority of them are not replied to and I find that they just become forgotten after a while — also I find it very hard to reply to generic starters with [ x ] number of people tagged in them; it makes it very difficult to track replies and I don't want anyone feeling forgotten! If you would like to rp, then feel free to tag me in a (single) starter, drop into my ask, ask me to write one for you, respond to a meme — whichever you'd prefer!
✖ IMPORTANT ✖
Please DO NOT assume that because my character is doing something, I as the writer —
approve of it
am romanticising it
have a kink with regard to it
think it is okay for anyone to ever do ever
There are a lot of things that I may write that might not be suitable and will be tagged as such. There will probably be a seperate page for my wishlist of things I'd like to thread about but also a list of things that will not show up here based off of my comfort level IRL.
✖ ALSO IMPORTANT ✖
I work full-time at a high-end/high-volume bakery as one of the shift leads and the main closing manager-- which means I get out of work late. Due to this, and the upcoming holiday season, I unfortunately will not be speedy with my replies-- if this is your expectation, then I’m probably not the right kind of roleplay partner for you.
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"Bright and optimistic, Tifa always cheers up the others when they're down. But don't let her looks fool you-- she can decimate almost any enemy with her fists..."
ABOUT THE MUN
Hello all! I go by Cali here on this little blog of mine! I'm 22 years of age and go by she/her or they/them. Whichever of the two you prefer. I'm located in PST, residing in Southern California.
I've been roleplaying on tumblr for about eight years now, since 2011. However, I started roleplaying back in 2007. This means I have about 12+ years of roleplaying experience.
I do have social media as well, certain ones can be given upon request but some do require a friendship of sorts! However, if y'all just want my discord, feel free to ask.