a burst of self-loathing anger would ensue, the sight of one he loves battered and beaten; wasn’t it his job to protect her? and she had come centimeters away from deaths door, resentment and frustration fill his mind with toxic thoughts of his own misdeeds. he should have been stronger, faster, smarter, he should have done a better job at protecting her at all costs. but just looking at her caused him to mentally beat herself up, with all her injuries, with all the blood she lost– she still worried about his own safety. don’t be so naive, tifa. don’t– don’t do that to him, he choked again, unable to fathom words as he attempts to hold back further tears, unable to show how he truly feels so she would stop worrying. ‘stop it! stop worrying over me!’ he thought to himself, ‘why?’ she almost died yet she still makes him her first priority– why?
even when they’re in a state of disarray, tifa still did put others before herself. even though he jested by saying ‘good morning’ to dissolve the situation a bit, her response almost made him lose his composure. he loved her, yet he watched her suffer too much. she felt guilt while in a bed on the verge of death, having to get a transfusion– AND SHE HAD THE LOOK OF GUILT ON HER FACE AS IF IT WAS HER OWN FAULT. WHY?!
the ex-SOLDIER got up, without care for his sustained injuries, and wrapped his arms around his beloved. trembling as he holds her, tightly gripping at the fabric of her gown. to think about what would have happened if he had lost her, how much he would blame himself, how much she meant to him. something warm to the touch would drop against her shirt; even more tears to stream down his face and onto her shoulder.
he cannot live without her, he couldn’t in a world without her.
if the lifestream had taken her, what was the point of living anymore? what was the point of getting up in the morning? what was the point of if all if it wasn’t to be with her?
and with all of this, cloud would pull away to look her in the eye. unsure of how much further pain they they needed to endure, but he was sure of one thing; he loved her.
a soft smile forms, a reassuring one that matches all the ones she would provide him when times were tough. he would want to spend the rest of his life and beyond with her– and due to that, he whispers a whisper that would change their future.
‘ will you marry me, tifa lockhart? ’
shiva’s chill can’t compare to the pain written on his face, the look of guilt in his eyes. g o d s&&g o d d e s s e s be damned, things shouldn’t have happened like this– he shouldn’t be hurting this much, shouldn’t ever be hurt like this. he leans in, pressed against bruised shoulder, w a r m drops against the thin material of the hospital gown she dons. the moment d a i n t y hands touch blonde spikes, her breath catches in her throat && she feels like breaking– can feel him shaking, sobs being choked back. he’s in p a i n too, she k n o w s, but it’s not just physical. this is mental and emotional t o r t u r e that she’s inflicted on him,&& she can’t take it back, can’t rewind time.
he pulls back, gives her a smile that she’s n e v e r seen on his lips, but she’s recognized it; all the times she’s given the same, hoping it would bring him the same h o p e he needed to move forward. she gives him a returned expression, soft and gentle despite the throbbing in her injuries, reminding her that she was a failure.
“will you marry me, tifa lockhart?”
she stills, eyes widening, breath c a t c h i n g, heart skipping a beat enough to register on her EKG– w o r d s that she was sure she’d never hear in her lifetime, not from Cloud or, really, a n y o n e. she’s reminded of childish dreams, a pen g l i d i n g across a page after his leaving of home, how she wished he never left, how she wished she told him how she really felt… && suddenly, it feels all real.
“yes..,” she whispers back, throat tight, eyes glistening with tears that eventually fall– maybe the gods && goddesses are blessing them finally.
you are so good at caring for others and keeping all your wounds covered. you are so good at drowning quietly, you’ve made it into an art. you are so good and you’re falling apart.
PLEASE READ THE FOLLOWING
before interacting
New followers: Hey guys! Cali here with a few things; please read the following and enjoy your stay!
Please note that this account is ’selective’ and is currently independent.
✖ FOLLOWING/UNFOLLOWING;
To everyone following me or thinking about following me, you are welcomed here with open arms! Don’t think that you will ever be excluded here. If I seem like I’m not interested, just send me an ask! Sometimes I’m incredibly shy or my social anxiety comes through the computer; all I ask is that you’re patient with me.
Also, my blog is here as an outlet for me to write and escape adult duties, especially since the outside world is pretty terrifying nowadays. I am here for me; and I know that may sound mean, but I have been ridiculed before on various past blogs for not interacting with someone because I didn’t have the time. Like I said before, if you want to interact with me, shoot me a message in my ask! Just, please, don’t make me feel bad for not interacting with you if I can’t make the time in my schedule. That’s not okay and I will not tollerate it for my own mental sanity.
✖ NSFW CONTENT;
NSFW posts will appear on this blog from time to time, depending on happens with the NSFW ban happening as of 12/4, though not all the time and in certain degrees. If you wish to block any of the NSFW content posted, I will have various tags for various things. These tags will be updated in the Rules portion of my blog but also will be announced through posts as well.
Sex: ( sexual tw. )
Blood: ( blood tw. )
Violence: ( violence tw.)
I’m 22 years of age and will not rp anything NSFW or anything that could be classed as NC-17 with anyone under 18. I understand different countries and states have different laws, but I am not willing to risk myself, as well as others, getting in trouble.
✖ Shipping;
This is a multi-verse blog. That means, there is the possibility of a relationship happening ( uwu ). There is always the chance of our characters starting a relationship with first interactions and building it in later threads, or meeting first hand and getting to know each other first. Don’t be afraid to come to me about it! I love a good shippy thread~
✖ OC’s;
I think this may come as a shocker with how weird the rp community gets but, yes I’m OC friendly! However, it does help me in the long run if you have a bio or some sort of about page for me to read before interracting. I love OC’s but I love well-rounded and well-plotted OC’s more--though it is okay if you're just starting out, I understand it all too well. That being said, if you want your OC to have a verse with me, or your OC is the daughter of Tifa as an example, please come into my ask so we can discuss this.
✖ AU’s/Crossovers;
COMPLETELY WELCOME HERE. I love AU’s and X-Overs– hhhhhh !! They’re perfect and amazing and offer a lot of growth to a thread, and even to our characters. So don’t be afraid to ask for an AU version! I'll also have some verses set up soon of different FF games, as well as games outside of the Final Fantasy universe.
✖ Starters;
I tend not to write starters for new followers as I find the majority of them are not replied to and I find that they just become forgotten after a while — also I find it very hard to reply to generic starters with [ x ] number of people tagged in them; it makes it very difficult to track replies and I don't want anyone feeling forgotten! If you would like to rp, then feel free to tag me in a (single) starter, drop into my ask, ask me to write one for you, respond to a meme — whichever you'd prefer!
✖ IMPORTANT ✖
Please DO NOT assume that because my character is doing something, I as the writer —
approve of it
am romanticising it
have a kink with regard to it
think it is okay for anyone to ever do ever
There are a lot of things that I may write that might not be suitable and will be tagged as such. There will probably be a seperate page for my wishlist of things I'd like to thread about but also a list of things that will not show up here based off of my comfort level IRL.
✖ ALSO IMPORTANT ✖
I work full-time at a high-end/high-volume bakery as one of the shift leads and the main closing manager-- which means I get out of work late. Due to this, and the upcoming holiday season, I unfortunately will not be speedy with my replies-- if this is your expectation, then I’m probably not the right kind of roleplay partner for you.
Lorem ipsum dolor sit amet, consectetur adipiscing elit. Fusce scelerisque nec orci ac elementum. Etiam dictum leo in leo fringilla, at ultricies arcu venenatis. Ut dignissim pretium volutpat. Nullam pharetra, nunc volutpat porttitor congue, libero felis tincidunt quam, at hendrerit velit augue vel odio. Praesent tincidunt lorem vitae maximus porta. Suspendisse hendrerit ut velit eget mattis. Proin malesuada efficitur ligula, a posuere sapien mollis et. Etiam volutpat in lectus at malesuada. Nunc et interdum leo.
Pellentesque a nisl venenatis, ultricies odio et, malesuada est. Mauris eros dolor, rhoncus vestibulum lorem nec, vestibulum ornare magna. Donec posuere ante mattis lectus bibendum, nec fermentum ante ullamcorper. Fusce blandit velit ac metus convallis ultricies. Quisque turpis nulla, scelerisque et orci ac, pellentesque ullamcorper odio. Fusce at auctor elit. Sed eu odio sodales est dapibus dictum in et ex. Nulla a elementum eros.
Proin blandit sollicitudin aliquet. Donec sed malesuada nibh. Sed quis fermentum velit. Praesent tincidunt, lectus in bibendum ornare, odio odio mattis purus, sit amet molestie orci velit et justo. Nunc cursus porta vestibulum. Curabitur elementum volutpat tortor, ut maximus enim. In hac habitasse platea dictumst. Sed tincidunt non tellus at efficitur. Sed id est tincidunt, euismod metus quis, aliquam mauris. Nulla nunc magna, fermentum semper pulvinar quis, facilisis eu tortor. Duis facilisis nulla et nunc fermentum ultricies. Pellentesque quis vulputate dolor. In non gravida arcu. Nunc nec libero fringilla, hendrerit leo sed, imperdiet purus.
Phasellus consectetur vitae sapien sed maximus. Phasellus vel nulla non purus ultricies euismod. Phasellus non orci tincidunt, commodo ligula id, elementum augue. Quisque at elit at justo mattis tristique eget non turpis. Duis euismod, mi ut sollicitudin sollicitudin, sapien lorem dapibus orci, id scelerisque ipsum dui non augue. Donec tortor mauris, venenatis nec finibus in, eleifend ac justo. Morbi a vulputate turpis. Proin hendrerit, urna sed iaculis euismod, est nisi vehicula nisi, vel convallis nibh tellus ac nibh. Vestibulum volutpat pellentesque sapien, nec pretium nulla aliquam nec. Cras ultrices nisl sit amet nulla consequat efficitur.
Nulla tincidunt felis non venenatis euismod. Fusce odio tellus, consectetur vitae erat non, feugiat tincidunt metus. Mauris suscipit ex sit amet arcu fermentum, eu fringilla diam consequat. Nullam imperdiet suscipit turpis, ac semper enim fringilla sit amet. Nullam ac magna pharetra, elementum sapien quis, pharetra elit. Suspendisse faucibus neque ligula, sit amet tempor est venenatis a. Praesent eleifend fringilla enim, vel varius libero laoreet eget. Aliquam erat volutpat. Phasellus tempor mi vitae enim consequat tempor. Cras condimentum quis tellus vel mattis. Cras sit amet est at neque luctus congue.
Lorem ipsum dolor sit amet, consectetur adipiscing elit. Fusce scelerisque nec orci ac elementum. Etiam dictum leo in leo fringilla, at ultricies arcu venenatis. Ut dignissim pretium volutpat. Nullam pharetra, nunc volutpat porttitor congue, libero felis tincidunt quam, at hendrerit velit augue vel odio. Praesent tincidunt lorem vitae maximus porta. Suspendisse hendrerit ut velit eget mattis. Proin malesuada efficitur ligula, a posuere sapien mollis et. Etiam volutpat in lectus at malesuada. Nunc et interdum leo.
"Bright and optimistic, Tifa always cheers up the others when they're down. But don't let her looks fool you-- she can decimate almost any enemy with her fists..."
ABOUT THE MUN
Hello all! I go by Cali here on this little blog of mine! I'm 22 years of age and go by she/her or they/them. Whichever of the two you prefer. I'm located in PST, residing in Southern California.
I've been roleplaying on tumblr for about eight years now, since 2011. However, I started roleplaying back in 2007. This means I have about 12+ years of roleplaying experience.
I do have social media as well, certain ones can be given upon request but some do require a friendship of sorts! However, if y'all just want my discord, feel free to ask.
VERSE NAME.
VERSE NAME.
VERSE NAME.